It's hard to believe a little over a year has passed since we gathered all our paperwork and finalized our home study. Today we put the stamp on our packet of updated contracts and reports for our second go round of the home study. I was really dreading this at the beginning of the summer, when a sweet friend shared something with me. She had to also do a second home study as theirs had expired just like ours. And along with it came some of the same dreaded feelings and heavy sighs. But she is the proud mother of two sweet little girls. She got her first little one shortly after updating the expired home study. They had started thinking and praying about starting the process to adopt their second child a while after and hit a few obstacles. Sure enough, God was working behind the scenes, and surprised them with a little baby girl seemingly out of nowhere. Had they not updated their home study, they would not have had time to complete a new one and adopt their second sweet little blessing. Timing is everything and although I wish some days our waiting time would come to an end, deep down I really am glad it's all in God's timing!
Full disclosure however... sometimes I have to reach down really really deep to remind myself of that and keep going. I recently was connected with another sweet Godly woman going through the adoption process, who like many of us waiting mamas, writes a blog. I read a couple of her entries and one that really stood out was entitled "I'm Tired." She wrote very honestly about being tired of things that all of us waiting mamas can relate to, but often out of southern politeness, never actually say.
Tired of being asked "are you pregnant yet?" or hearing of yet another friend who is pregnant... the list went on and I laughed at some and cried at others as they all hit home. I'm so thankful to meet other women and couples going through this process and hearing their stories, emotions, and experiences. They make me feel a bit more normal (if there is such a thing). There is not a doubt in mind that God connects us at the most perfect moments to give encouragement and hope.
So here we are, still waiting, but still hopeful. It's good to know, God keeps His promises... I'm giving the old saying, "the patience of Job" a whole new appreciation! I could sure use a little of that!